it's really funny how i always do the most pointless of things during very crucial periods. i don't know why, but i guess it's a way to erm, escape reality? by pretending that my commitments don't exist, somehow?

i dont know, but now is one such example of such erm, escapist behaviour. yes, i think that's the word for it. escapism yeah.

hell, of course i know it's not good, but then since it's my natural way of dealing with stress, so be it:D

anyway, i've been thinking about lots of things recently and had a few revelations, epiphanies, whatever you call it. but am still confused about a few things. ohwell.